EVERYONE I AM
Today, after spending the morning out in the blue
air with that bright warm ball of gold way up in it that drifts across the
upness like a sunbow, doing a few hours of raking leaves for compost,
planting onions, cleaning the woodstove, lugging some wood and
harvesting some greens and mushrooms, while later lunching on the
freshest food there is, it occurred to me that when I head on into the
office tomorrow, punch the time card, sit down at my desk and begin
tapping away at a keyboard for a few hours, I'll be doing artificial
work: work that only peripherally needs a body, just two eyes, some
brain and ten fingers would do, since that's pretty much all that's
used, in exchange for some numerical fluctuation in a virtual money
bank account, but that when I do this other work - actual work - I'm
using every single thing about me, every move I can make, everyone I am,
in completely different ways with every task, and a self-diversity
occurs, a natural diversity that excites all the entireness a body is,
lets it be its whole self in all its reaches, in the same joy that dance is.
Even
in this actual work though, in this body dance, that bit of brain that gets its
exercise over a keyboard is still working, but not at someone else's
semantics; everyone I am is at its own native endeavors rather, such as
effervescing little ideas and turns of phrase into its head (commonly
called 'me'), unlike when I'm in the office and the largely ignored
but multicapable body just sits there in corporeal neutrality
with no other task than to basically keep everything erect and in place,
as it has been trained to do since childhood (all those years at school
desks), when all along it has naturally craved to do otherwise than
merely maintain posture for a fixed duration, like a soft rock with
circulation. No wonder, the pressing need in the fully civilized world
for huge medical programs, when so few can be the everyones they are...